I hope the New England Patriots and Denver Broncos go to Super bowl XLVIII and the Patriots win!!
I’m not going to put myself through this anymore. I have other things to worry about. I don’t have time to deal with bullshit. It’s happening way too often and I feel like it’s so fucking pointless and not going anywhere. It’s not getting any better and I don’t give a fuck anymore! I’m not getting anything out of it so why bother? It’s just wasting my time and I don’t need negative people in my life. I’m not going to just settle when I deserve better and I know it. I learned from the past so I know I can let go and when it is time to
Omg!! I haven’t had my period in over 10 months and I think I’m starting it!! :( fuck!! I forgot how cramps feel. I’m gonna die!! Ahhhhhh!!
my boyfriend had this delivered to me at work today! I was so surprised and happy! I love it so much! he knows how much I love surprises & fruits!! :P haha he’s so sweet and I just love him so much =)
my boyfriend is so cute :P so today I went over to his house and found out he was sick =( so we went to the doctors and they told him he has the flu! so after we picked up prescriptions from 2 pharmacies we went back to his house so he could rest. I was trying take care of him by giving him water and feeding him chicken noodle soup. the whole time he was like “thank you so much I really appreciate everything you have done for me and I just love you so much etc etc” then outta no where when I’m putting my stuff away, he’s like “so what’s your ring size?” lol silly baby… I just hope he feels better! it really sucks to be sick!! I felt bad that I didn’t spend the night there but I knew if I stayed I would have got sick too…
so school started and it’s not that bad, but it is just the beginning… I hope I won’t end up being stressed out. this semester is different because my brother & I actually go to the same school lol it’s weird especially since we car pool too.
work is getting better because it’s not too busy so I’m not always exhausted by the time I get home. I still love all the people I work with and I hope no one gets fired or replace because that would suck…
my family & I are not as happy & close as we were before. I think it’s because everyone is just changing and we might spend a little too much time together or we just expect too much. I don’t know. All I know is the last family party we had I was so pissed off… but no matter what family still means everything to me even if they do annoy me or piss me off. I just still hate how racist people are and I can tell they all judge me when they see me like “why is she with a black guy?” like shut the fuck up! I swear.. it’s so ignorant and I just hate it! like how can you fucking judge someone without meeting them and just say he’s a bad person or whatever… like he doesn’t even look like a thug or talk like a gangster and he would never hit a girl and never even smoked or done any drugs his whole life… shit he’s been through a lot as a kid but he is not a bad person. I know that the people who have met him like my brother or cousins they all say he’s super nice and is fun to be around because he talks and he’s funny… it’s just so sad when people are like “but he’s black” like what the fuck!!! why does that even fucking matter!
man this went from a happy post to a mad post lol I just wish they had more education so they would not be so ignorant to judge someone based on their race… so the other day I was watching a documentary on pitbulls and how in some states they would go to some houses and take away people’s pitbulls and kill them because they were “dangerous”! seriously?? that’s so stupid! that’s like the same thing with racism.. picking a certain breed of dog and calling them dangerous? any fucking dog can be dangerous!
Anyways.. I wrote this for my baby =)
"WHY IS MY BOYFRIEND SO AMAZING? HE JUST MAKES ME SO HAPPY :) HE NEVER TRIES TO UPSET ME & WHEN I GET SAD HE’S ALWAYS THERE TO CHEER ME UP. HE NEVER TRIES TO CONTROL ME OR MAKE ME DO THINGS I DON’T WANT TO DO. HE ALWAYS WANTS TO SEE ME EVEN IF HE SAW ME LAST NIGHT. HE ALWAYS CALLS ME AND TEXT ME BECAUSE HE WANTS TO TALK TO ME. HE HAS A HARD TIME EXPRESSING HIS FEELINGS FOR ME BUT HE HAS GOT A LOT BETTER AT IT BECAUSE HE’S AFFECTIONATE AND ALWAYS MAKES ME FEEL LOVED :) I KNOWS I’M HARD TO HANDLE SOMETIMES BUT HE TRIES AND NEVER GIVES UP. I LIKE HOW HE GETS ALONG WITH MY FAMILY AND IT’S JUST SO EASY TO BE WITH HIM. HE ALSO REMEMBERS THINGS ABOUT US THAT I SOMETIMES FORGET AND HE’LL BRING IT UP WHICH MEANS A LOT TO ME BECAUSE HE ACTUALLY CARES AND CHERISHES WHAT WE HAVE DONE. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BELIEVE IN LOVE AGAIN BUT AFTER BEING WITH HIM I’M JUST SO THANKSFUL AND HAPPY."
boyfriend got me sick :( hopefully a nice hot shower will help
it’s so cute when I’m like nooo!! and he’s like “you’re lucky that I love you” lol
I keep getting bloody noses :( 3 within a week!! dariens dogs got into another fight :( they bleed so much it makes me so sad!! now we need to separate them :/ school is okay. it’s kind of stressful because I need to memorize so much stuff but I found out I got an A on my first test :) work is getting really annoying & the dentist always seem to irritate me every day I’m working. Friday was my BFFs birthday!! :) she’s finally 21 so now we can go to the bars & stuff together!! lol she was so funny at her party because it was my first time seeing her drunk :p I love her!! yesterday my boyfriend was so sweet that he called me & was like “baby wake up I’m gonna come to your house in 20 minutes to take you out for breakfast” :) I had a delicious omelette from egg works :p man last night he drove me home around 3am & somehow his window got a crack in it :( I think someone threw a rock or something… I don’t get why someone would do that & I didn’t see anyone :/ I feel so bad though.. and today we might go to the Greek festival…
just got home. today was fun :) I feel like my life is going nonstop!! no time to be bored & lazy! my sleeping schedule is just messed up!! I don’t know how I was able to pull off all-nighters back in high school lol work was hella busy today from 9am-6pm & right after work we went to circus circus, got a giant drink (I’ll post the picture tomorrow) and then ate sushi for my cousins birthday. now I gotta wake up in 5 hours for school and after school I have a family dinner at my other cousins house to eat the fish we caught at lake mead… not to mention more studying & work but I love my life :) I have an amazing family that I always have a blast with & I love my boyfriend very much :) he’s so good to me & he’s just incredible & I miss my BFF!!
p.s. no this isn’t the alcohol talking lol
went fishing for the first time at lake mead from midnight-8am with the cousins & boyfriend!! it was so much fun!! but I’m so exhausted… no pix from on the boat because I didn’t want to risk dropping my camera or iPhone into the lake (trust me it happened twice already). I caught like 3. I hope I can go again soon!!
"why does he have to be black?"
wtf? how the hell do I answer that?! my parents are so annoying!! they keep telling me they hope I’ll find another guy but I told them that I’m not gonna stop talking to someone just because they want me to. I’m an adult and I can make my own decisions. it doesn’t have to do with them because they’re not the one in the relationship I am! they think I’m choosing him over them which is hella stupid and wrong!! there’s nothing bad they can say about him besides that h”e’s black” but that don’t mean shit! so they need to get over it.. they’re wrong & can’t keep tryna control me especially by being ignorant
dear God can you please make my parents not racist and always care about what other people think about them?